I sat for two and a half hours in seiza and didn’t feel any pain. I cried so much during sections of the ceremony that I was perplexed as to why I only brought one kleenex in my sleeve.
This ceremony reminded me that I have a heart that can really reach people and be reached by people. That the delta between daily life and the contentedness of the shuso ceremony is much greater than it needs to be.
I felt loved and supported. I was greatly encouraged.
Going into this ceremony, I didn’t really worry about the Q & A logistics at all; wasn’t nervous. I have done plenty of that sort of thing in my life and giving a spontaneous answer(s) in a public setting is something I am well trained in. What I was most focused on was the heart. Could I meet people on a heart level? Could I hear them? Could I be vulnerable? In my personal life, with those closest to me, this hasn’t been an issue – it certainly hasn’t been perfect either but not a place that is hard to get to. However, with those who are not in my closest circle, I do tend to stay at the “head” level.
This ceremony was an opening for me. It made me realize that if I just stop, take the time and pour myself into what is happening with the person in front of me, it can be quite connected. That I can hear, reach and be with in a powerful way.
I walked out of the ceremony encouraged, humbled and ready to listen.